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But if your heart's not in it, for real.
Please dont try to fake what you dont feel.
If love's already gone,
Its not fair to lead me on.
Cause, i would give the whole world, for you.
Anything you'd ask of me, i'll do.
But i wont ask you to say,
I'd rather walk away.
If your heart's not in it.
thank you by the way!
so many pple lining up to kiss me man.
too bad you dont want.
then dont come la.
:pPpP
in a donttouchme kind of mood now.
grrrrr!
all because of youyouandyou.
one paper down.
okays.8 more to go.
i dont wanna study.
physics's making my mind go crazy.
called mstang as chyng.
that one only my partner knows.
called mrgoh. mrtan.
ths whole class couldnt stop laughing at me.
thanks ar.
i'm burning!
go away go away go away.
cowards are a bunch of idiots.
i shant be bothered wif them right.
24sep(:
i love jenn.
i know jenn loves me too.
my blood's still boiling.
grrrr.
thankyou.
to my dearest sister and my brother.
i love you.
thank you.
gabtan isnt here again.
had a really good time at the 3s bench!
hoho.
reading all the stupid and silly writings there.
especially the coloured ones!
made me laugh like siao.
damn funny!
laughed my head off.
hoho.
i wonder who wrote this.
but her trademark ----> =)
HAHA!
i want to know who wrote all the setupid things.
chengyi is superr funny!
arghh.i super cant stand her.
she's damn funny!
tests and tests.
sighs.
babybaby.:)
to my dearest brenda:
i cant tag yr board!
tried but couldnt.
but i love you anyway.
school's been boring.
lessons and remedials.
had a zhongguo hairstyle today!
why?all thanks to zhongguomei.
she out so many clips on my hair.
=) so fun!
not to mention.
i'm so cute!
hohoho.
rachel chin.
:) head prefect 2005.
how much i want to be a prefect!
sadly,my class takes it as a joke.
make me so sad okay!
dont you think i am capable to be a prefect.
and the head prefect too!
woohs.
chingching's healthy pork lard.
hehe!:DDD
exams are drawing nearer.
and i've been slacking.
boos.
i'm such a bad kid.
when like all my classmates are bia-ing.
shrugs.
everything seems so blur.
my mind's drifting far again.
argh fuck.
get lost.
bangs head against the wall*
sorry.but raerae is mute.she cant talk.
ups and downs in life.
what can i say.
fuck.
thats the only word available.
as promised.
chengyi is super funny.
she is one zhongguomei!
and she loves china history.
so interested in china history.
cant wait to learn china history.
too bad la.cant help it for her.
she's from china anyway.
and pple like limszemin!
like until now that i know she comes here?!
please kindly sign my gbk you stupid pig.
the previous chinese test.
great improvement.
this shows that i really studied for my chinese okay!
improvement by 18.5
hees.so great.
until daddy gave me a high5.
lalalalas.
exams are drawing nearer and nearer.
sighs.
i hate exams.
i shall not open my mouth and speak.
because i am mute.
thank you.
arghh
i'm superr tired.
finished two blog templates for us.
plus plus the geo project!
been sitting in from of the com for hours.
i'm tired.
my template nice ma?!
hehe.
i like it.
we like it.
its so orange.
lalalalalalala.
currently waiting for the pig to finish eating.
before we have a nice long chat!
baby boy.
so long since i've seen you!
arghhh.
miss you like mad.
where are you?
baby boy disappeared le.
said i would take this holiday and study right.
hmms.
i doubt i did.
brought home all my tb.
didnt even flip a page.
i wonder what have i been doing.
shrugs.
a week without you!
arghh.
you're so mean to leave me alone for a week.
but i understand.
good luck.hope you go well.
love you love you love you.
schools tomorrow.
yay!
i just dont know why i look forward to school so much.
training should be starting too.
i dont want to get dark!
boos.
qians in love wif mrtay.
shrugs.thats weird.
__ back.
off wif our conver!
loveyouloveyouloveyou.
still got abit of yr face i havent kiss wor.
arghhh fuck.
rachel chin.
you simply suck.
can you just like fuck off.
go get a life.
spice it up alittle.
fine.
go fuck yrself.
thankyou.
r&b simply rocks!
its the best kind of music everrr!
=))
there's always some reason
to feel not good enough
and its hard at the end of the day
i need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memories seep from my veins
let me be empty and weightless
and maybe i'll find some peace tonight.
received a message yesterday.
i freaked out when i saw the first line.
i immediately delete can!
arghh.
then my sister keep mentioning abt some girl wif brown hair wearing school u.
i had enough of all these!
please.i'll be damn scared can.
8sep totally rocks.
it just makes me smile at the thought of it.
been scolding myself all these days.
please ting hua rachelchin.
get all the shit off yr mind.
i want to live happily!
wif you.
hehe.my imaginary lover.
thankyou for reading.
ps.chinese sucks.
i purposely dont want to touch my yingyongwen.
hoho.
still alittle bit of yr face i havent kissed.
you step alittle closer each day.
:))) world peace.
thank you.
i'm a bitch.
world peace.
let me slip away.
numb.
i'm feeling so numb.
i need yr love.
caiyilin!where are you.
sistersister where are you.
mingming where are you.
how how.
i feel like crying le.
i really dont kow what to do.
241102 yes my birthday.
i really dont know what happened on that day.
i dont know what happened on other days too.
what happened in 02 and 03.
fuck.
tai wei qu is forever sounding so sad.
it makes me want to cry even more.
what can i say?
all i can blame is myself.
perhaps i'm just this illfated.
fuck off.
go away.
i dont want to see you.
or anyone else.
i feel so fucked.
my heart hurts.
badly.
i dont know what to do anymore.
what to think anymore.
cut my life into pieces
this is my last resort
suffocation
no breathing
don't give a fuck if i cut my arm bleeding
do you even care if i die bleeding?
would it be wrong?
would it be right?
if i took my life tonight
chances are that I might
mutilation outta sight
and i’m contemplating suicide.
cuz i’m losing my sight
losing my mind
wish somebody would tell me i’m fine
nothing's alright
nothing is fine
i'm running and i’m crying
i'm crying now
i'm crying now
i'm crying now
i can't go on living this way.
'ym the lousy bung' i wanna see who you are and watch yur face. if yur not scared, then why use such a cowardy name? hehs. actually, i think it's better to not reveal yur name. =)) why? because,you wun be able to walk ard sch without the fear of one of us coming up to you and giving you hell. hehs. so yeah. for yur own good, buzz off.
hehe.thankyou.
thats the joke of the century.
amaths remedial early this morning.
honestly.ms wong can be nice.
=) i seriously think we should treat her better.
i think i should be studying.
i slacked too much today.
shall mug tonight?
havent touched my holiday homework yet.
does my pictures over make you want to puke? ------->
shrugs*
yingmin claims that she pukes whenever she comes here.
HAHAHA.
i really hope she gets some eating disorder.
:)))
bamboo enough?!
and still got eating disorder.
wont that make her die faster?
woohs!fun!
gullible little kids of cedar girls.
some frenching in the toilet rumor going on!!
HAHAHA.this is super funny.
you mean what?
pearly and marie?
or trixie and the other person.
why only certain pple get to hear the rumor?!
and the kpoest pple dont get to hear abt it?
must be you all make up one la.
just to spice up boring cedar alittle you know.
chuckles.
i miss my best senior.
where are you?!?!
have been searching high and low for you.
confessed to baby boy abt my bad feeling.
had a nights thought over it!
=)))
i'm glad i sorted out my thinking.
i choose you.
go fuck yrself.=)
thank you.
some pple want it all.but i dont want nothing at all.
if it aint you baby,if i aint got you baby.
some pple want diamond ring,some just want everything,
but everything means nothing.
if i aint got you.
baby i'm sorry.
i'm so useless.
yes yes.
i admit i'm such a bitch.
and i know its you.
yingmin.
thank you ya.
its holiday!
whee.
but too bad.
i have to mug for the stupid chinese test tomorrow.
special day for raerae.
its like finally here!
jumps jumps*
shhh.
its secret okay.
teachers day.
to all teachers reading this.
happy teachers day!
please kindly sign my gbk to let me know which teacher you are.
:))) thank you.
1sep is just so super special.
teachers day celebration was so cute!
my teacher just rolls.
woohs.
wenqin is super freaky.
like damn!
you always see her in some places.
where she hangs out alone.
and apparently stalks any pple she knows.
to be exact.cedarians.
baby baby.
are you like awake?!?!
sighs.
the sec4s are leaving real soon.
i'm gonna ta miss qian and yvette!
qian more.most.mostest.
sighs.
anyway.
baby baby.
i miss you.
Rachel / Rae
24th nov 1989
raeraerae_@hotmail.com
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